A car I'd actually buy and learn to drive if I had loads of cash. It also operates as a power generator w/a 110 A/C outlet! Got to write down the loc of this company's warehouse in case I survive the apocalypse.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Fresco quotes
I just watched the montage from the Fresco interview (below) and there's some of his better lines included. His take on competitive society mirrors my own: "Competition is dangerous, socially offensive, considered right and normal because you are brought up to that value system. What kind of competition did Jesus have?"
In discussing transportation (and cars and their safety measures as an analogy for our society and its laws and other guidance): "They are designed by cerebral insufficients! ... Eliminate cars and design a holistic transportation system."
In the end:
Larry King: No control of the population?
Jacque Fresco: Population control is dependent upon education. We feel an educated public needs no control.
I love the pairing of "holistic" and "transportation," or any technology. And I've got to remember to refer to people as "cerebrally insufficient." The man is an awesome Vulcan (with Spock's compassion).
In discussing transportation (and cars and their safety measures as an analogy for our society and its laws and other guidance): "They are designed by cerebral insufficients! ... Eliminate cars and design a holistic transportation system."
In the end:
Larry King: No control of the population?
Jacque Fresco: Population control is dependent upon education. We feel an educated public needs no control.
I love the pairing of "holistic" and "transportation," or any technology. And I've got to remember to refer to people as "cerebrally insufficient." The man is an awesome Vulcan (with Spock's compassion).
Let's meet for a coke
After airing Ginni (wife of Clarence) Thomas' voicemail to Anita Hill - asking her for an apology for what she did to them years ago - Olbermann plays a series of gag voicemails from other wretched folk also requesting apologies. Laughs!
Jacque Fresco Interview with Larry King, 1974
Here's a clip from the old Jacque Fresco interview I mentioned a few posts back. I love how damn earnest and impassioned this guy is. Imagine if people like him - as in, scientists hoping (and planning) for a peaceful future in which everyone's needs are met - ruled the world (or at least our country). Hey, I'm a dreamer.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
The strategy of fear and loathing
Last night (10/19/2010), Rachel Maddow was discussing the “southern strategy,” discovered by the Republican Party in the process of losing the 1964 presidential election. Barry Goldwater lost everywhere but in the south, which had until then been heavily democrat; this time around, Lyndon Johnson handily took everything else. The reason Goldwater got those votes was because of his stance against the Civil Rights Act. Realizing this led to the southern strategy: play on white folks’ racism. Nixon ran with this and won; as his chief political analyst told the New York Times:
From now on, the Republicans are never going to get more than 10 to 20 percent of the Negro vote and they don’t need any more than that… but Republicans would be shortsighted if they weakened enforcement of the Voting Rights Act. The more Negroes who register as Democrats in the South, the sooner the Negrophobe whites will quit the Democrats and become Republicans. That’s where the votes are.
This wasn’t something that was leaked, this was plainly stated to the most prominent newspaper in the country by Nixon’s official right hand man. It would be embarrassing to come out and say this in public today, to admit to the party’s and white electorate’s general racism, but as Maddow conveyed during her segment, endless Republican/Tea Party candidates are using the southern strategy today, issuing and/or insinuating racist slurs and rhetoric to a surreal degree (my word for the GOP of the last few years has been surreal, when I’m being polite). And yet, they’re not being called on it as they have in the past. Previously, such comments could end a politican’s career, or at least an election; these days, fouls are being allowed to slide. The refs are largely missing, they being the news media,* pundits, and the candidates’ peers and rivals (thankfully, my hero Rachel and others on MSNBC are at least pointing these things out in the realm of TV news… if anyone knows of others on air that are bothering to raise an eyebrow, please let me know, since I don’t watch much TV news beyond MSNBC these days).
And so Rachel discussed the boldness and proliferation of the southern strategy in practice today with her junior black correspondent Prof. Melissa Harris-Perry (the latter part of that hyphenation is new: congratulations!), who I also love to watch (I can say this about most of Rachel’s contributors). In their chat they did touch on the strategy not being restricted to race - though it is being used to a far greater degree than in the last couple of decades on account of there being a black man in the white house - but also re: the gay community. And, important to note, that it can’t fairly be called the “southern” strategy because it’s not just effective in the south.
They didn’t mention religion in their (too brief**) talk, but if we want to see the strategy for what it is, we should include religious prejudice as well. And there’s the key word: prejudice. Put most plainly, it’s a strategy of playing on the prejudice against non-whites, non-heterosexuals, and non-Christians. Feel free to mention a non-x if I’ve missed one; it’s tempting to add non-male, though that angle is relatively subtle (not like the candidate of the same name… HAW HAW HAW!). I do see the anti-choice crowd (they’re typically called pro-life, but that sounds more “pure” than warranted) as treating women as inferior; but I connect this stance with religion more than gender, though it affects the entire gender, regardless of an individual woman’s religion. Clearly women being regarded and treated as the secondary gender is a part of the culture, but it’s not used as an overt part of their political strategies.
And they’re right, the strategy of playing on racism isn’t just a southern thing, it’s effective everywhere that there’s racists, and that’s everywhere. It’s generally more important in places where there are more hardcore clusters of racists, especially in a national (presidential) election; running a race-baiting ad in my state of Massachusetts, for instance, will likely (I hope) lose you more votes than gain them. But the strategy plays well in the fly-over states, basically, and while I know that’s a generalization, it’s generally true. (This gets my mind chugging along on my usual train of thought about the need for the weakening of the federal government, and the creation of regional, self-governing provinces… basically the break-up of the United States, but without breaking the union entirely, etc. I once even drew up a map of my desired re-configuration!)
As I said, the strategy is really not just about race, but about prejudice, which is about close-mindedness, fear, and hate. If we want a new name for it, I’d call it the strategy of fear and loathing, or the white power strategy (that term really does speak about more than just racism, but that’s another discussion). And the way to counter it is for people to call it for what it is, using specific evidence (which is always readily available via recordings), and making sure people know why these politicians (and others) are using it and just how despicable it is. I love that Rachel Maddow does this (as well as others in MSNBC, such as Olbermann and Lawrence O’Donnell with his new show Last Word), but the ones that need to do it the most are these vile candidates’ opponents. They’ve got to get some frakkin’ balls and stand up against this prejudice, and show these villains for what they are. They’re doing the public a disservice by letting everything just fly, and supposedly, they’re running for office in order to serve the public (ha! well, that was the original intent of our government, at least… corporatocracy is, again, another discussion entirely).
I’ve never accepted any of the reasons given for politicans’ not offering hardcore counterpoints to unjust comments constantly vomited up by the right, whether they be prejudiced statements or insinutations, or outright lies, about their opponents, or own actions, etc. A blatant and important example of this, for me, was when our state’s senatorial dullard – John Kerry – utterly failed to respond to the lies about his experiences in Viet Nam. The opposition gave him golden ammo - to paint himself as a decorated war veteran being attacked and smeared by despicable sellouts – and his official reason for failing to respond to the campaign was that it was beneath him. You can’t trust that the electorate is on the high road, and that the public isn’t gullible and easily herded, whether it be by lies repeated as mantras, or by fear-mongering prophecies of doom brought about by Mexicans crossing the border and the armed forces letting gay married folk fight for the rights of our rich people to get richer at the expense of the lives of non-white people killed in countries we civilians don’t ever have to see in person (see above, re: another discussion entirely).
It’s a strategy of fear and loathing, and it should be pointed out whenever its employed, every time it’s employed, as mantra-like as the lies and venom that get repeated until they’re accepted as fact by our easily-conditioned sheep. As the old anti-homophobia slogan says, “Silence = Death,” and that one is all too literal these days. As has often been said regarding incidents when a racist comment goes unimpeded and uncountered, a lack of response grants passive approval (obviously this applies to any prejudiced statement). Fear persists via ignorance, the lack of information, and it will rule us unless we communicate information, rationality, and plain compassion. Our society is antagonistic, selfish, and competitive, when we need cooperation and generosity if we wish to thrive. I call pro-life anti-choice; they make call pro-choice anti-life; to me, the strategy of fear and loathing is anti-life. It leads us to literally destroy one another by various means, and the people using this strategy are running for office. Don’t forget to vote on November 2nd.
* Regarding media: Can people start countering right-wingnuts when they criticize the mainstream media? Or that’s the “lamestream” media, as Sarah Palin says repeatedly, with the wit of a pre-pubescent. Fox News is the most popular TV news source in America: it is the mainsteam media, and the idiot gets a paycheck from them. And anyone that thinks of the rest of the major media as being liberal has no clue regarding liberal ideas. Maddow and Olbermann are liberal, for today’s standards. But then, these terms mean less and less over time: liberal, conservative, even left and right wing, etc. They’re comparitive terms, and as the general political bodies shift and fall off the deep end of the spectrum, and as surreal ignorance sweeps over the atmosphere, everything becomes rather nonsensical. Some of Reagan’s ideas are now liberal by comparison to those of today’s Republicans/Tea Party characters. Furthermore, re: labels, when a system of government is rife with corruption, its supposed style – democractic, socialist, communist, theocratic, whatever – is less defining than the corrupt elements superceding it. I spent a college semester in Malawi (fall 1989), a country that had been relinquished by the British in the 60’s, turning the place over to democratic self-rule. I found it was ruled with an iron fist by a guy that had democratically elected himself president for life. Our country was founded as a democracy by and for the people, but our government has become a front for a corporatocracy. Corporations have been gaining the same rights as people for ages now though, so really, we can say we’re technically still holding true to the original concept. Again, I digress and ramble.
** Regarding interviews being too brief: I’d love to see more extended interviews with – well, just about anyone – on TV. Rachel Maddow has people on for as good a length of time as any, if not better, excluding shows that have the long interview as their format, such as Larry King, etc. (and amusingly, we also need to exclude the Daily Show, which on occasion has had interviews longer than the show’s actual running time). Shows that have interviews with multiple guests interrupting one another drive me insane, and short interviews are so often useless and end up leaving questions unanswered and raising new ones. Which of course the TV news folk can then make into a news cycle’s worth of analysis, spin, and speculation. Sound bites are outright detrimental to our society.
I’ve been watching more documentaries lately as a result of my increasing frustration with TV news. Speaking of Larry King, I just watched an amazing interview he did in 1974 with Jacque Fresco, regarding his invention of “sociocyberneering, a new science” (although honestly, it was Fresco that was amazing, King just wisely let him talk). The guy was so far ahead of his time it was sick, and he’s the most earnest speaker I’ve seen in ages. He was so intensely passionate about his work – the development of a utopian future - which he covered a great deal, considering the range of topics he touched on in just 40 minutes. You can get the interview via torrent (legally!) here, and you can see him far more recently in the docu Zeitgeist: Addendum (in which he discusses his Venus Project), which is far superior to the interesting but at times eye-rolling original Zeitgeist film. (Click on those links to watch the movies free/legally; for a lot more Zeitgeistery, go to The Zeitgeist Movement site. I'm looking forward to Peter Joseph's next film coming in January 2011.)
I highly recommend watching the 3-docs-in-1 Zeitgeist primarily for its first third, re: the mythology of Jesus/Osiris/Dionysus/ad infinitum; the last third is on our debt-based economy and the federal reserve, which is great material, and is then expanded upon greatly by Addendum. My eye-rolling was caused by the segment on the 9-11 conspiracy; not that I think the questions asked aren’t valid, but that I can’t honestly trust anyone’s answer to the questions when the harcore evidence that could be used to uncover a potential conspiracy has been destroyed. I don’t think we’ll ever know if there was some kind of an “inside job” or just assistance to Al Qaeda’s actions unless someone confesses and offers proof of their involvement. There is, plainly, the aspect that many people knew the attack was forthcoming and didn’t try to stop it, and for some, they didn’t want it stopped, as it was an avenue for the invitation to insanely profitable/holy war. Another discussion entirely? I digress.
Unrelated but also brilliant: I’ve just finished watching the six-part series Monty Python: Almost the Truth (Lawyer’s Cut), just recently aired during this 40th anniversary of the group’s formation. Their work still holds up beautifully; amazing. It was really interesting – and funny - to watch the surviving members recount their experiences in those few years. Graham Chapman (“Arthur, King of the Britons!”) died many years ago from cancer, and it was sad only to be able to see him in interviews given during the 80’s. All the Pythons regarded him as being the best actual actor among them, and one – I forget which, but I think it was Terry Jones – mentioned how he’d have loved to have seen him go on to act in non-comedies, imagining him playing King Lear, for instance. I can imagine that as well; the man was really amazing. If you watch his performances, specifically for him and his skill, as Arthur, as Brian, as old biddies (of course), it’s impossible not to be impressed. He could have been a great leading man in many films. And I have to say, I love that Monty Python’s default leading man just happened to be the one gay man in the group, and that he was out (eventually). It just didn’t matter; he was brilliant whether he was or not, or you knew it or not. I’ve wondered, had he lived, what impact he might have had as a role model, icon, whatever. Although I’m sure that the more homophobic of we Americans think that there’s some amount of the gay in any Brit, or especially in any “European,” and in any event, they live in some other perverse world of socialist pagan aberrance that must be repeled by our collective straight white Christian rugged individualism at all costs.
From now on, the Republicans are never going to get more than 10 to 20 percent of the Negro vote and they don’t need any more than that… but Republicans would be shortsighted if they weakened enforcement of the Voting Rights Act. The more Negroes who register as Democrats in the South, the sooner the Negrophobe whites will quit the Democrats and become Republicans. That’s where the votes are.
This wasn’t something that was leaked, this was plainly stated to the most prominent newspaper in the country by Nixon’s official right hand man. It would be embarrassing to come out and say this in public today, to admit to the party’s and white electorate’s general racism, but as Maddow conveyed during her segment, endless Republican/Tea Party candidates are using the southern strategy today, issuing and/or insinuating racist slurs and rhetoric to a surreal degree (my word for the GOP of the last few years has been surreal, when I’m being polite). And yet, they’re not being called on it as they have in the past. Previously, such comments could end a politican’s career, or at least an election; these days, fouls are being allowed to slide. The refs are largely missing, they being the news media,* pundits, and the candidates’ peers and rivals (thankfully, my hero Rachel and others on MSNBC are at least pointing these things out in the realm of TV news… if anyone knows of others on air that are bothering to raise an eyebrow, please let me know, since I don’t watch much TV news beyond MSNBC these days).
And so Rachel discussed the boldness and proliferation of the southern strategy in practice today with her junior black correspondent Prof. Melissa Harris-Perry (the latter part of that hyphenation is new: congratulations!), who I also love to watch (I can say this about most of Rachel’s contributors). In their chat they did touch on the strategy not being restricted to race - though it is being used to a far greater degree than in the last couple of decades on account of there being a black man in the white house - but also re: the gay community. And, important to note, that it can’t fairly be called the “southern” strategy because it’s not just effective in the south.
They didn’t mention religion in their (too brief**) talk, but if we want to see the strategy for what it is, we should include religious prejudice as well. And there’s the key word: prejudice. Put most plainly, it’s a strategy of playing on the prejudice against non-whites, non-heterosexuals, and non-Christians. Feel free to mention a non-x if I’ve missed one; it’s tempting to add non-male, though that angle is relatively subtle (not like the candidate of the same name… HAW HAW HAW!). I do see the anti-choice crowd (they’re typically called pro-life, but that sounds more “pure” than warranted) as treating women as inferior; but I connect this stance with religion more than gender, though it affects the entire gender, regardless of an individual woman’s religion. Clearly women being regarded and treated as the secondary gender is a part of the culture, but it’s not used as an overt part of their political strategies.
And they’re right, the strategy of playing on racism isn’t just a southern thing, it’s effective everywhere that there’s racists, and that’s everywhere. It’s generally more important in places where there are more hardcore clusters of racists, especially in a national (presidential) election; running a race-baiting ad in my state of Massachusetts, for instance, will likely (I hope) lose you more votes than gain them. But the strategy plays well in the fly-over states, basically, and while I know that’s a generalization, it’s generally true. (This gets my mind chugging along on my usual train of thought about the need for the weakening of the federal government, and the creation of regional, self-governing provinces… basically the break-up of the United States, but without breaking the union entirely, etc. I once even drew up a map of my desired re-configuration!)
As I said, the strategy is really not just about race, but about prejudice, which is about close-mindedness, fear, and hate. If we want a new name for it, I’d call it the strategy of fear and loathing, or the white power strategy (that term really does speak about more than just racism, but that’s another discussion). And the way to counter it is for people to call it for what it is, using specific evidence (which is always readily available via recordings), and making sure people know why these politicians (and others) are using it and just how despicable it is. I love that Rachel Maddow does this (as well as others in MSNBC, such as Olbermann and Lawrence O’Donnell with his new show Last Word), but the ones that need to do it the most are these vile candidates’ opponents. They’ve got to get some frakkin’ balls and stand up against this prejudice, and show these villains for what they are. They’re doing the public a disservice by letting everything just fly, and supposedly, they’re running for office in order to serve the public (ha! well, that was the original intent of our government, at least… corporatocracy is, again, another discussion entirely).
I’ve never accepted any of the reasons given for politicans’ not offering hardcore counterpoints to unjust comments constantly vomited up by the right, whether they be prejudiced statements or insinutations, or outright lies, about their opponents, or own actions, etc. A blatant and important example of this, for me, was when our state’s senatorial dullard – John Kerry – utterly failed to respond to the lies about his experiences in Viet Nam. The opposition gave him golden ammo - to paint himself as a decorated war veteran being attacked and smeared by despicable sellouts – and his official reason for failing to respond to the campaign was that it was beneath him. You can’t trust that the electorate is on the high road, and that the public isn’t gullible and easily herded, whether it be by lies repeated as mantras, or by fear-mongering prophecies of doom brought about by Mexicans crossing the border and the armed forces letting gay married folk fight for the rights of our rich people to get richer at the expense of the lives of non-white people killed in countries we civilians don’t ever have to see in person (see above, re: another discussion entirely).
It’s a strategy of fear and loathing, and it should be pointed out whenever its employed, every time it’s employed, as mantra-like as the lies and venom that get repeated until they’re accepted as fact by our easily-conditioned sheep. As the old anti-homophobia slogan says, “Silence = Death,” and that one is all too literal these days. As has often been said regarding incidents when a racist comment goes unimpeded and uncountered, a lack of response grants passive approval (obviously this applies to any prejudiced statement). Fear persists via ignorance, the lack of information, and it will rule us unless we communicate information, rationality, and plain compassion. Our society is antagonistic, selfish, and competitive, when we need cooperation and generosity if we wish to thrive. I call pro-life anti-choice; they make call pro-choice anti-life; to me, the strategy of fear and loathing is anti-life. It leads us to literally destroy one another by various means, and the people using this strategy are running for office. Don’t forget to vote on November 2nd.
* Regarding media: Can people start countering right-wingnuts when they criticize the mainstream media? Or that’s the “lamestream” media, as Sarah Palin says repeatedly, with the wit of a pre-pubescent. Fox News is the most popular TV news source in America: it is the mainsteam media, and the idiot gets a paycheck from them. And anyone that thinks of the rest of the major media as being liberal has no clue regarding liberal ideas. Maddow and Olbermann are liberal, for today’s standards. But then, these terms mean less and less over time: liberal, conservative, even left and right wing, etc. They’re comparitive terms, and as the general political bodies shift and fall off the deep end of the spectrum, and as surreal ignorance sweeps over the atmosphere, everything becomes rather nonsensical. Some of Reagan’s ideas are now liberal by comparison to those of today’s Republicans/Tea Party characters. Furthermore, re: labels, when a system of government is rife with corruption, its supposed style – democractic, socialist, communist, theocratic, whatever – is less defining than the corrupt elements superceding it. I spent a college semester in Malawi (fall 1989), a country that had been relinquished by the British in the 60’s, turning the place over to democratic self-rule. I found it was ruled with an iron fist by a guy that had democratically elected himself president for life. Our country was founded as a democracy by and for the people, but our government has become a front for a corporatocracy. Corporations have been gaining the same rights as people for ages now though, so really, we can say we’re technically still holding true to the original concept. Again, I digress and ramble.
** Regarding interviews being too brief: I’d love to see more extended interviews with – well, just about anyone – on TV. Rachel Maddow has people on for as good a length of time as any, if not better, excluding shows that have the long interview as their format, such as Larry King, etc. (and amusingly, we also need to exclude the Daily Show, which on occasion has had interviews longer than the show’s actual running time). Shows that have interviews with multiple guests interrupting one another drive me insane, and short interviews are so often useless and end up leaving questions unanswered and raising new ones. Which of course the TV news folk can then make into a news cycle’s worth of analysis, spin, and speculation. Sound bites are outright detrimental to our society.
I’ve been watching more documentaries lately as a result of my increasing frustration with TV news. Speaking of Larry King, I just watched an amazing interview he did in 1974 with Jacque Fresco, regarding his invention of “sociocyberneering, a new science” (although honestly, it was Fresco that was amazing, King just wisely let him talk). The guy was so far ahead of his time it was sick, and he’s the most earnest speaker I’ve seen in ages. He was so intensely passionate about his work – the development of a utopian future - which he covered a great deal, considering the range of topics he touched on in just 40 minutes. You can get the interview via torrent (legally!) here, and you can see him far more recently in the docu Zeitgeist: Addendum (in which he discusses his Venus Project), which is far superior to the interesting but at times eye-rolling original Zeitgeist film. (Click on those links to watch the movies free/legally; for a lot more Zeitgeistery, go to The Zeitgeist Movement site. I'm looking forward to Peter Joseph's next film coming in January 2011.)
I highly recommend watching the 3-docs-in-1 Zeitgeist primarily for its first third, re: the mythology of Jesus/Osiris/Dionysus/ad infinitum; the last third is on our debt-based economy and the federal reserve, which is great material, and is then expanded upon greatly by Addendum. My eye-rolling was caused by the segment on the 9-11 conspiracy; not that I think the questions asked aren’t valid, but that I can’t honestly trust anyone’s answer to the questions when the harcore evidence that could be used to uncover a potential conspiracy has been destroyed. I don’t think we’ll ever know if there was some kind of an “inside job” or just assistance to Al Qaeda’s actions unless someone confesses and offers proof of their involvement. There is, plainly, the aspect that many people knew the attack was forthcoming and didn’t try to stop it, and for some, they didn’t want it stopped, as it was an avenue for the invitation to insanely profitable/holy war. Another discussion entirely? I digress.
Unrelated but also brilliant: I’ve just finished watching the six-part series Monty Python: Almost the Truth (Lawyer’s Cut), just recently aired during this 40th anniversary of the group’s formation. Their work still holds up beautifully; amazing. It was really interesting – and funny - to watch the surviving members recount their experiences in those few years. Graham Chapman (“Arthur, King of the Britons!”) died many years ago from cancer, and it was sad only to be able to see him in interviews given during the 80’s. All the Pythons regarded him as being the best actual actor among them, and one – I forget which, but I think it was Terry Jones – mentioned how he’d have loved to have seen him go on to act in non-comedies, imagining him playing King Lear, for instance. I can imagine that as well; the man was really amazing. If you watch his performances, specifically for him and his skill, as Arthur, as Brian, as old biddies (of course), it’s impossible not to be impressed. He could have been a great leading man in many films. And I have to say, I love that Monty Python’s default leading man just happened to be the one gay man in the group, and that he was out (eventually). It just didn’t matter; he was brilliant whether he was or not, or you knew it or not. I’ve wondered, had he lived, what impact he might have had as a role model, icon, whatever. Although I’m sure that the more homophobic of we Americans think that there’s some amount of the gay in any Brit, or especially in any “European,” and in any event, they live in some other perverse world of socialist pagan aberrance that must be repeled by our collective straight white Christian rugged individualism at all costs.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
I'm continuing to look through my newly archived blog posts from 2001, and read this lengthy "open letter" I'd written in June '01, prefaced with:
The following is an open letter I just finished writing. It's the nth version of this ever-evolving note.
I remember this, but I've no idea how many times I tried putting it together... it was started and abandoned often. Reflections on it:
1) Sadly, though my condition is no longer as severe as it was, the letter still suffices in painting a picture of what my life is like.
2) Curiously, it seems that I was receiving bigger testosterone injections back then.
WTF? I had a different specialist in those days. With the guy I've been seeing in recent years - who is supposedly regarded as a hotshot of endocrinology - I'm on a lower dose, though have asked on more than one occasion if a bigger shot would help. He negged the idea; would the earlier doctor (who I didn't much like) - or another doctor - have differed? Again, I know that the doc I'm seeing now is publicly regarded as being fantastic.
Well, my next appointment with him is coming up soon, and I can address it (I'll also mention it to my injections nurse later this month, just to see if she has any thoughts). I'm also curious to see how my recent blood test checks out. I receive injections of testosterone every two weeks, and for once I had them test me one week after an injection, rather than right before it. Taking a blood test at the end of the two-week period gives you a sense of your low-end/baseline, and mine are always poor. But I've always wanted to know what my levels were like during more of the bulk of the duration, thinking that if they're low, we might alter my treatment. I hate that I have to be the one to try and be more assertive about my treatment (a big part of my medical/psychological condition is that I'm a terrible advocate for myself). Ideally, one's doctor would be earnest to pursue an issue.
I dream of having a doctor like that of Robertson Davies' The Cunning Man... if you've never read Davies - regarded by many as Canada's greatest novelist - you should check him out. His Dr. Hullah was basically a doctor that was truly investigative and saw each patient as an individual... is that too much to ask?
The following is an open letter I just finished writing. It's the nth version of this ever-evolving note.
I remember this, but I've no idea how many times I tried putting it together... it was started and abandoned often. Reflections on it:
1) Sadly, though my condition is no longer as severe as it was, the letter still suffices in painting a picture of what my life is like.
2) Curiously, it seems that I was receiving bigger testosterone injections back then.
WTF? I had a different specialist in those days. With the guy I've been seeing in recent years - who is supposedly regarded as a hotshot of endocrinology - I'm on a lower dose, though have asked on more than one occasion if a bigger shot would help. He negged the idea; would the earlier doctor (who I didn't much like) - or another doctor - have differed? Again, I know that the doc I'm seeing now is publicly regarded as being fantastic.
Well, my next appointment with him is coming up soon, and I can address it (I'll also mention it to my injections nurse later this month, just to see if she has any thoughts). I'm also curious to see how my recent blood test checks out. I receive injections of testosterone every two weeks, and for once I had them test me one week after an injection, rather than right before it. Taking a blood test at the end of the two-week period gives you a sense of your low-end/baseline, and mine are always poor. But I've always wanted to know what my levels were like during more of the bulk of the duration, thinking that if they're low, we might alter my treatment. I hate that I have to be the one to try and be more assertive about my treatment (a big part of my medical/psychological condition is that I'm a terrible advocate for myself). Ideally, one's doctor would be earnest to pursue an issue.
I dream of having a doctor like that of Robertson Davies' The Cunning Man... if you've never read Davies - regarded by many as Canada's greatest novelist - you should check him out. His Dr. Hullah was basically a doctor that was truly investigative and saw each patient as an individual... is that too much to ask?
chronic blogulation
I just preserved myself by downloading all of my old livejournal entries. Somehow they only allow you to do it month by month, which is odd, but it made me see how erratic my posting has been. I knew it was erratic, but it was surprising to see that in some years I posted, like, twice. This year, I've only posted a bit (uhm, I think this is my 5th or so). I did notice that I missed copying posts over to the LJ from here quite a bit, but this has only been going for 3 years. My first post on livejournal - my first blog online, I guess - was all the way back on June 3rd, 2001. A decade of blogging during my decade of complete lamitude.
Various parts of that first post are interesting to me, but this part about my medical condition made me laugh:
Long haul, indeed. 10 years and counting. Insane. As I said after that paragraph: "Well, shit."
As a sign of the times, I can think back to how I blogged in the decade/century before: by zine, Taz Times (originally Hei Times, Hei being my last name for a brief period). It's a good thing those "personalzines" weren't online, since they were a bit too revealing. I should hook up my scanner and scan in the covers though, one was pretty amusing.
Various parts of that first post are interesting to me, but this part about my medical condition made me laugh:
So really, finally getting SOME diagnosis and treatment is a great thing; the idea being that I can get better, and be better than I ever was, I think. The road is insanely long, though. It took me months before I could even begin to get treatment, and the more I go through it, the more I realize that this is a long haul.
Long haul, indeed. 10 years and counting. Insane. As I said after that paragraph: "Well, shit."
As a sign of the times, I can think back to how I blogged in the decade/century before: by zine, Taz Times (originally Hei Times, Hei being my last name for a brief period). It's a good thing those "personalzines" weren't online, since they were a bit too revealing. I should hook up my scanner and scan in the covers though, one was pretty amusing.
FYI, I've joined the herd and am now using facebook. I've always had an account (previously named "Fonzie Chamberlain," my porn name) but used it only to connect to a couple people. Now I've changed it to my actual name (it's not like my name can be at all hidden online, being the only one with it) and am feeding this blog there. Of course, all of this is moot if I disconnect from the universe and don't post anything or contact anyone, which is typical of me and to be expected. I've also linked my picasa albums there btw, so if/when I post something, it'll be easy to see; I haven't posted anything since the stuff I linked a couple posts down one month ago, but maybe I'll be creative, y'never know.
"When Captain America throws his mighty shield..."
Finally, the superhero game I've been waiting for:
My favorite superhero of all time, lookin' fine.
I just got another idea on who I'd like to have seen cast as Cap in the upcoming film: Cyril Raffaelli of District B13 fame. Having an actor w/major parkour skills would have been brilliant.
(Instead, Cap's being played by Chris Evans, who was Human Torch in F4.)
The concept art for the movie is gorgeous and of the right flavor, but who knows how it will actually look. I've always felt that getting a decent version of Cap's uniform on screen without looking ridiculous would be a real trick.
My favorite superhero of all time, lookin' fine.
I just got another idea on who I'd like to have seen cast as Cap in the upcoming film: Cyril Raffaelli of District B13 fame. Having an actor w/major parkour skills would have been brilliant.
(Instead, Cap's being played by Chris Evans, who was Human Torch in F4.)
The concept art for the movie is gorgeous and of the right flavor, but who knows how it will actually look. I've always felt that getting a decent version of Cap's uniform on screen without looking ridiculous would be a real trick.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Election time!
In Massachusetts, today (Tuesday, 9/14/2010) is pre-Election Day, so to speak: primaries. Get thee hence to the polling place designated to your location!
More interesting are the ballot initiatives which we don't get to vote on til November. Here in Mass, right-wingnut Carla Howell is again proposing a state sales tax cut, from 6.25% to 3%. Past attempts have scored an alarming number of votes, and the teabagger movement could conceivably push it over the top this year. Of course, after you watch this awesome music video, you'll probably be convinced of the idea's merit. Howell fancies herself a singer-songwriter, apparently, and recorded this hysterical tune "How Could I Live Without Filing Taxes?"
Ouch.
For a rundown of the three ballot questions this year, go here:
http://ballotpedia.org/wiki/index.php/Massachusetts_2010_ballot_measures
A general guide to the Mass elections can be found at the Globe's site. Less details on the questions, but will detail all of the elections.
But basically, when it comes to the questions, vote No on all three. Do it! I told you to! There's no need for you to think about it!
As a voter enrolled neither as Democrat or Republican, I can go in and choose either of their ballots for their respective primaries. I checked out the Democrats' ballot, and became pretty disinterested; most are running unopposed. I'm thinking of taking a Republican ballot so I can vote for the craziest candidates I can find. There's a Tea Party guy running for auditor named Kamal Jain; and there's this awesome Harvard U physicist named Mike Stopa running for 3rd District US rep:
He's all for the Arizona anti-immigrant law. Meanwhile: "We have four beautiful children. At least, I think they're beautiful." Amusingly, he's married to a Japanese woman, and so his Japanese-American children look like they might be stopped and interrogated were they to actually travel to Arizona.
Sadly, we can't vote for this next guy. Greatest. Stump speech. Ever. Enter Phil Davison, who's "RUNNING FOR THE POSITION OF STARK COUNTY TREASURER!!!"
"DRASTIC TIMES REQUIRES WHAT! DRASTIC MEASURES! YES!!! WHO SAID THAT!!!"
Of course, any such video treasure demands instant remixes:
Phil Davison is Coming (Braveheart Remix)
Thus Spake Phil Davison (A Space Odyssey Remix)
History's Great Speeches (Phil Davison Remix)
PHIL DAVISON - (EPIC TRANSFORMERS THEME REMIX)
Phil Davison (FOX News Version)
And of course:
Phil Davison (Sparta Remix)
More interesting are the ballot initiatives which we don't get to vote on til November. Here in Mass, right-wingnut Carla Howell is again proposing a state sales tax cut, from 6.25% to 3%. Past attempts have scored an alarming number of votes, and the teabagger movement could conceivably push it over the top this year. Of course, after you watch this awesome music video, you'll probably be convinced of the idea's merit. Howell fancies herself a singer-songwriter, apparently, and recorded this hysterical tune "How Could I Live Without Filing Taxes?"
Ouch.
For a rundown of the three ballot questions this year, go here:
http://ballotpedia.org/wiki/index.php/Massachusetts_2010_ballot_measures
A general guide to the Mass elections can be found at the Globe's site. Less details on the questions, but will detail all of the elections.
But basically, when it comes to the questions, vote No on all three. Do it! I told you to! There's no need for you to think about it!
As a voter enrolled neither as Democrat or Republican, I can go in and choose either of their ballots for their respective primaries. I checked out the Democrats' ballot, and became pretty disinterested; most are running unopposed. I'm thinking of taking a Republican ballot so I can vote for the craziest candidates I can find. There's a Tea Party guy running for auditor named Kamal Jain; and there's this awesome Harvard U physicist named Mike Stopa running for 3rd District US rep:
He's all for the Arizona anti-immigrant law. Meanwhile: "We have four beautiful children. At least, I think they're beautiful." Amusingly, he's married to a Japanese woman, and so his Japanese-American children look like they might be stopped and interrogated were they to actually travel to Arizona.
Sadly, we can't vote for this next guy. Greatest. Stump speech. Ever. Enter Phil Davison, who's "RUNNING FOR THE POSITION OF STARK COUNTY TREASURER!!!"
"DRASTIC TIMES REQUIRES WHAT! DRASTIC MEASURES! YES!!! WHO SAID THAT!!!"
Of course, any such video treasure demands instant remixes:
Phil Davison is Coming (Braveheart Remix)
Thus Spake Phil Davison (A Space Odyssey Remix)
History's Great Speeches (Phil Davison Remix)
PHIL DAVISON - (EPIC TRANSFORMERS THEME REMIX)
Phil Davison (FOX News Version)
And of course:
Phil Davison (Sparta Remix)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Sharing is Caring
I've been telling myself to actually post something, or just yank the blog. So I'm posting something. Not much, just references to other, more interesting somethings. But I thought I'd share.
New photos I took with my brother's awesome hand-me-down camera:
Wedding Photos (kind of, not really)
Pet Pix
Watch these videos:
1) Machete started out as a fake trailer attached to Robert Rodriguez & Tarantino's Grindhouse flicks, and the former has now made it into a movie. This awesome trailer is a mix of the old trailer with some footage from the new flick:
2) And One - one of my favorite bands of all time - covered an old song of their own, and made their best video ever:
3) Brilliant animated short paying homage to H.P. Lovecraft. It might look primitive at first, but it's definitely not:
Okay, enough stalling... I have to finish some accounting work I've owed my brother for oh, half a year....
New photos I took with my brother's awesome hand-me-down camera:
Wedding Photos (kind of, not really)
Pet Pix
Watch these videos:
1) Machete started out as a fake trailer attached to Robert Rodriguez & Tarantino's Grindhouse flicks, and the former has now made it into a movie. This awesome trailer is a mix of the old trailer with some footage from the new flick:
2) And One - one of my favorite bands of all time - covered an old song of their own, and made their best video ever:
3) Brilliant animated short paying homage to H.P. Lovecraft. It might look primitive at first, but it's definitely not:
Okay, enough stalling... I have to finish some accounting work I've owed my brother for oh, half a year....
Monday, November 9, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
ACORN
I was just watching the video of ACORN employees helping a supposed pimp and his hooker and how easily fraudulent it might be.
Part One: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UOL9Jh61S8&feature=related
Part Two: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgqORp48uik&feature=related
Only once does someone on-screen - an ACORN employee - mention any kind of sex work: "Don't call yourself a prostitute." All of the talk involving sex workers comes from the pimp, whom you never actually see. Basically you can take this video and replace his dialogue to make it sound as it probably was: the film-makers posing as a stripper and friend. They also get advice on an unlikely situation of their being in a house that's taking in 13 children from El Salvador, and some of the advice raises questions, but still might actually all be legal. The final segment has them discussing avoiding what sounds like a previous pimp, but instead was probably them giving advice on avoiding a menacing ex-boyfriend, etc. Of course the video's editing is very choppy.
The idea of ACORN employees calmly giving advice to a pimp and hooker importing 13 children from El Salvador to serve in a prostitution ring seems a bit ridiculous. The idea of Republicans wanting to destroy ACORN by whatever creative means necessary seems... well, it's not just likely, it's true. ACORN registers scads of people to vote in urban areas. If all they did was their other activities - finding poor people affordable housing, education, understanding government services and accessing existing government assistance, they wouldn't be such a threat. But registering poor people to vote is what has always required they be crushed.
From Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ACORN#2009:_Undercover_videos_controversy
A spokesman accused O'Keefe of dubbing the audio on the videos.[60] Tresa Kaelke, one of the ACORN organizers interviewed, states she believed the actors were joking and made a variety of absurd or joking statements to them;[61][62] another interviewed employee, Juan Carlos Vera, contacted a police officer after the incident.[63] ACORN fired the Baltimore employees, but also called the first video "false", "defamatory", and stated that undercover teams had failed in similar attempts elsewhere.[64][65] On September 16, 2009, ACORN suspended advising new clients and began an internal review process, headed by Scott Harshbarger, due to "the indefensible action of a handful of [ACORN] employees".
The whole issue is being investigated by the Brooklyn DA (ACORN is based in NYC) and ACORN is suing the filmmakers, but meanwhile they're getting funding cut left and right, and their name is now used just as easily as "socialism" and "Obamacare" and "Michael Moore" to incite fear and loathing. I'm always in love with Rachel Maddow for her ongoing coverage of all of this: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26315908/
Part One: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UOL9Jh61S8&feature=related
Part Two: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgqORp48uik&feature=related
Only once does someone on-screen - an ACORN employee - mention any kind of sex work: "Don't call yourself a prostitute." All of the talk involving sex workers comes from the pimp, whom you never actually see. Basically you can take this video and replace his dialogue to make it sound as it probably was: the film-makers posing as a stripper and friend. They also get advice on an unlikely situation of their being in a house that's taking in 13 children from El Salvador, and some of the advice raises questions, but still might actually all be legal. The final segment has them discussing avoiding what sounds like a previous pimp, but instead was probably them giving advice on avoiding a menacing ex-boyfriend, etc. Of course the video's editing is very choppy.
The idea of ACORN employees calmly giving advice to a pimp and hooker importing 13 children from El Salvador to serve in a prostitution ring seems a bit ridiculous. The idea of Republicans wanting to destroy ACORN by whatever creative means necessary seems... well, it's not just likely, it's true. ACORN registers scads of people to vote in urban areas. If all they did was their other activities - finding poor people affordable housing, education, understanding government services and accessing existing government assistance, they wouldn't be such a threat. But registering poor people to vote is what has always required they be crushed.
From Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ACORN#2009:_Undercover_videos_controversy
A spokesman accused O'Keefe of dubbing the audio on the videos.[60] Tresa Kaelke, one of the ACORN organizers interviewed, states she believed the actors were joking and made a variety of absurd or joking statements to them;[61][62] another interviewed employee, Juan Carlos Vera, contacted a police officer after the incident.[63] ACORN fired the Baltimore employees, but also called the first video "false", "defamatory", and stated that undercover teams had failed in similar attempts elsewhere.[64][65] On September 16, 2009, ACORN suspended advising new clients and began an internal review process, headed by Scott Harshbarger, due to "the indefensible action of a handful of [ACORN] employees".
The whole issue is being investigated by the Brooklyn DA (ACORN is based in NYC) and ACORN is suing the filmmakers, but meanwhile they're getting funding cut left and right, and their name is now used just as easily as "socialism" and "Obamacare" and "Michael Moore" to incite fear and loathing. I'm always in love with Rachel Maddow for her ongoing coverage of all of this: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26315908/
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Crasher Squirrel
Ok, I'm so easily amused that I just spent a few minutes using the Squirrelizer (http://www.lutralutra.co.uk/squirrelizer), and here's the results:
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Sanford
South Carolina Gov. Sanford just got back from his curious vacation, to reveal he's been having an affair. Why is a Republican being involved in an extramarital affair still worthy of a press conference? Anyway, he has one here:
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/politics/2009/06/24/sot.sc.sanford.affair.scetv
and you should watch it. Not because of what he says - he gives the usual plea for forgiveness, etc. - but because of the women behind him during his speech, who are constantly trying to stop themselves from laughing. So watch the two women on the left, but be sure to watch the woman on the right at about 45 seconds into the video.
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/politics/2009/06/24/sot.sc.sanford.affair.scetv
and you should watch it. Not because of what he says - he gives the usual plea for forgiveness, etc. - but because of the women behind him during his speech, who are constantly trying to stop themselves from laughing. So watch the two women on the left, but be sure to watch the woman on the right at about 45 seconds into the video.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Philately Geek
I love and hate being on this stamp store's mailing list. They're running a sale on this series of "overrun nations" from WW2 that came out in 1944. It was the first time the USPS used more than two colors in printing stamps.What... you aren't excited about this? What the hell's wrong with you?!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Vids
Hey, first post in ages. Been feeling absolutely shit for the last four months... now am on new drug (Nardil) and am notably better. Let's see if it lasts.
Meanwhile, here's some entertainment. This chickiebabe Nataly Dawn is all over YouTube, by herself and as half of her duo Pomplamoose. Pretty damn addictive and worthy of sharing:
And in case you missed it, the phenomenal remixes of Christian Bale's awesomely awesome fuckfest:
Meanwhile, here's some entertainment. This chickiebabe Nataly Dawn is all over YouTube, by herself and as half of her duo Pomplamoose. Pretty damn addictive and worthy of sharing:
And in case you missed it, the phenomenal remixes of Christian Bale's awesomely awesome fuckfest:
Sunday, December 21, 2008
... srsly?
In the ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!!! department:
Baghdad celebrates first public Christmas amid hope, memories
Am I wrong for thinking this is absolutely insane, and potentially dangerous?
Baghdad celebrates first public Christmas amid hope, memories
BAGHDAD, Iraq (CNN) -- From a distance, it looks like an apparition: a huge multi-colored hot-air balloon floating in the Baghdad sky, bearing a large poster of Jesus Christ. Below it, an Iraqi flag. ....
.... In the middle of the park there's an art exhibit, the creation of 11- and 12-year-olds: six displays, each about three feet wide, constructed of cardboard and Styrofoam, filled with tiny dolls dressed like ordinary people, along with model soldiers and police. They look like model movie sets depicting everyday life in Baghdad.
Afnan, 12 years old, shows me her model called "Arresting the Terrorists."
"These are the terrorists," she tells me. "They were trying to blow up the school." In the middle of the street a dead "terrorist" sprawls on the asphalt, his bloody arm torn from his body by an explosion. Afnan tells me she used red nail polish to paint the blood. A little plastic dog stands nearby. "What is he doing?" I ask. "He looks for terrorists and searches for weapons and explosives," Afnan says.
Am I wrong for thinking this is absolutely insane, and potentially dangerous?
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